I really wonder why people get married when they can get divorce so easily. When adults quarrelled, they can just easily say " fine, we'll divorce" but is the bond between them so weak, that divorce can solve their problem, can they actually give up each other after years tgt. Yeah, my parents quarrelled. They said "if it's isn't for you, i would have walk out of this house" it seems really easy for them to do so, but have they really think about the consequences? they said they love me, that is why they kept the marriage gng, but the more they love me this way, the more unbearable the pain they will inflict on me. it makes me feels like i'm the reason why they are unhappy abt their lives and marriage, maybe without me, they will be far better off than this. Sometimes, i think i shouldn't even be here, i should just vanish, i noe hiding from this problem wont help at all, but i dunno how to face it anymore. I might be seen as immature to get fussed up all these problems cos it's just part of life, but facing this fucking problem for 16 years, i guess i really need to let my emotion out especially when i have a blog now. i dun mean to use vulgartities, but i just nid to use them to let off my unbearable feelings. so just pardon me. Have they really love each other? they dunno how much they have hurt me when they said they did this cos they just love me too much. but the way they love me gives me heartache. I use to tell them every single thing about me and everything, but i just dun feel like telling them how i feel right now cos i am just too tired to be bother. when i dun bother, it doesn't mean that i am not concern, but i'm just too tired about everything. Even by telling them, it won't salvage the situation too, it will only make them feel more guilty, this is the least i want them to feel. I'm alrdy fucking stressed up abt my revision for my end of year exams and now this, this is just a fucking double nlow for me. I noe they still love each other deeply, but it still hurts me, it's just a tingling feeling in me. I'm too tired, i tink i need a break, to break free...

i got back my progress report ytd, i did quite okay overall, pass all sujects, overall percentage was 65%, just hope tt my result can be like this during exams. I saw the timetable for exams, it's crazy man, they put f&n and physics tgt, how to study like tt??? Had teachers' day celebration today.. it's fun, food was awesome i swear, video was wonderful, thks to rina, jerry and shalyn. My class actually won the salad making competition.. so happy. Then Ming Yang from our class perform with his new band and my class cheered like crazy during the concert. haha. 1 month away from my end year exams and O lvl chinese. Gtg start preparing, cant screw my exams anymore... Got extra lesson on tue for chemistry from 9.30am to 11.00am. Guess im gonna study with huishan for chinese, finally someone to study with. to all those who are taking the N lvls, all the best! ganbatte!!!



thks for those 167 hearts, really touched=)

School was really slacky today, there are no teachers taking us, better still, no relief teacher. Right after school ends, a bunch of us went to get all the decorations for teachers' day cos we will have no more time if we dun get it today. We will be having chinese prelims on monday, maths prelims on tuesday and chinese prelims again on wednesday. Thursday, we'll have to stay back after school to get the classroom decorated cos friday is teachers' day. Getting back progress report alrdy, dunno how did i fare. After septmber holidays, it will be final years exam and O lvls alrdy! So fast... oh oh oh, did i say tt i'm deeply in love with this song, it's called "the call", gosh, it's a beautiful song by regina spektor, but i just cant find any site to download tt song.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's neverBeen this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

school was like slacky and kinda stress. Got tests and Prelims every week, it's so sianifying la (a new word i learn from shalyn) haha. got maths prelims tmr, paper 2, 2 and half hours. it's a bit ironic rite, im suppose to study for the maths prelims but here i am blogging, it's not tt i have a lot of time, but if i continue studying, my head will go 'pitchia' i stiudied from like 5.45 till like 7.20 continuously, it's really tiring. Seeing all this maths equation really makes me go berserk. I kinda of like this song, teardrops on my guitar, i noe it's like so ong ago alrdy, but it's nice..
here are the lyrics:
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:] He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her lov
e Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight
Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

There's really like nothing for me to update, but yeah, i'm just gonna write abt friday, sat and sun. My school celebrated National Day at East Coast Park, we had cross country, what a "wonderful" way to celebrate. yup, we were suppose to report at 7 and ocip ppl were suppose to report at 6.45 but cos of mi, i made Shalyn, nabilah, rina, zuhairi and stephanie late, my bus overshot or should i say i miss the stop and i nearky ended up in toa payoh. so after tt, i treated them to ice cream. haha. Went to parkway with shalyn after everything was over to get some gifts and then we met maria, junshen, timonthy, syafiq, annabelle and this i-dunno-who person, but it's their friend. There's nothing much on saturday, i just went to my aunt's house to have dinner and movie till like 11+ then went home. Sunday, i went to do reivision with nad at loyang point and we were like talking so loudly till the whole macdonald's can hear us i think then nad stated singing to the music. gosh, my life is dull, there's like nothing for mi to write. Shall update some more when i have more to write.