AVS paper down, left with Law, Materials and Management. AVS was okay, i guess, But i have this feeling that I wont do very well. Oh well, what to do? There's just so much for me to rmb, and when it's time to pen it down, I just forget everything, only parts and pieces. I've paraphrase a lot of answers cos i just couldn't rmb the exact thing. haha.
Gng back to TMS tmr:) Damn, i really miss sec school. No need to stress abt what to wear, tutorials, projects, presentation, MST and exam and my freaking GPA-.- But life goes on.. no point grumbling about it.
Law exam on the 7th sept, all the best people! YAY!! I wanna shop, but no $$. hahaha, Mummy just gave me $60 capitamall vouchers as my birthday present:), daddy gave me $20 tangs vouchers long long time ago and i have yet to use them. I've got $5 prima deli vouchers too. This means i can only shop at tangs and shopping centre own by capitamall. haha. Gonna cut my hair after exams! cant stand my hair anymore, freaking long and the weather's killing me.

Yes, this is my new blogskin. It's time for a change yeah? hahha. Yup, all i wanna do is to sing ans dance like there's no one watching. I spead almost a quarter of my life getting affected by what others think and feel although i said i'm not affected at all.. it's a big fat lie. haha. I realised i always want others to feel good and comfortable by the things i do, if not, i'll try means and ways to make amendments for the plan. i'm really tired of that, it's time to live my life, my way. I wanna do things my way now, no more disruptions pls:)
Exams are startinf next week, trying really hard to memorise all the theory, think i need to get a 16GB brain memory cos there's simply no space in there anymore. When i memorise the nxt part, i've already forgotten the previous parts i memorised earlier on. LOL. the biggest joke yeah?
I really enjoy dancing, though i may not be a good dancer, but i enjoy how the movements made my body feel so free, like everything that was worrying me is gone. I may not be a a very confident person, but dancing showed me a whole new cherlyn, and i like that cherlyn a lot!:) I'm gonna continue dancing no matter what. hahaha.
I wouldn't say things at home have been better, but at least, there aren't getting bad, and I am glad this way. I'm gonna turn 18 real soon, for this, i know it's gonna be different, not gonna expect much either, hahaha. Woah, I've been thru almost a quarter of my life, that's really fast!! Soon, i'll be 20, the two and a huge zero, by then, i would have alrdy graduated from poly, the first thing i wanna do is to travel on my own, maybe a 1 week trip. I wanna explore things on my own.
I'm planning to study overseas, i bet everyone knows that, hahaha, gonna start saving, I wanna see the world, learn from all the adventures i embarked on, so that when I'm back, i can proudly say that I'm a much more confident Cherlyn:) I won't mind if i have to go overseas alone, it's time for me to be independent. Maybe that few years will as life-changing as the OCIP trip.
Ppl may say, why not go to local Univeristy, the standard in S'pore is so high and local Unis are good, like NUS, SMU etc. I know, i definitely noe. But I dun wanna spend my whole life here not knowing what the world is like outside.
One semester is gone like that, 4 more semesters and i'm done with school!, no actually, it's 4 more semesters and 6 months of internship, I'll be done with poly, graduate with a Diploma. Some ppl still ask me why didn't i choose to go JC. Well, you see, how many ppl out there have prejudice against normal stream students,i would say almost 45%. Though i may have done well in O levels and this has given me a chance to enter JC and not all normal stream students had this chance, or maybe shld i say, my school's normal students all did well and did not even wan to go JC. I can proudly say that we did really well, better than what the school expect us to be, but we didnt want to go JC. Maybe, they are just like me, we know what we want to do in life. Poly is definitely not slacker than JC, it's really stressful too, i think it's a more intense version of sec school. But it's a route i have chosen and i will go through it no matter how hard it may be.

I guess no one is reading my blog cos im gonna reveal somethings here. I'm rather stressed up by school recently, exam is round the corner, and im really scared i wont do well. I just got elected as the exchange club sub-comm member, and this is really stressing me up quite a lot. I've gone back to school for some meetings to discuss about some camps we will be organising at the end of the year. I'm under the liaison, there was actually only me, but thank god zom offered to help me, if not i'm in dead meat. Im suppose to contact the primers and the adventure club as we need to borrow some camp eqiupments from them and we need primer to coach us on how to set up campfire. At least adventure got back to me, but there's still not news from primer. I need to finalise some things with them before the recce which is right after the exam.

I went for SPOT interview ytd and i think i did quite okay, but im quite reluctant to to join the programme, it seriously needs a lot of commitment which i am definitely not ready for. I want to do all those fun elective modules with my friends too, and not some current affair modules. Im in a huge dilemma, cos if i get into spots, i wont need to pay for my school fees and i will gain a lot of benefits from it. 75% of me doesnt want to get in and 25% wants to get in. see the massive difference.

Im am really sorry, i noe i will make things easier for you by getting in, all of you pin so much hopes on me, knowing that i have the chance, you guys are all so hyped up and happy for me, but im not really so keen in getting in. Im really stressed up by the situation im in right now. I hate this, but forgive me for being a little selfish this time, i gave up this rare opportunity, i really cannnot handle the stress level. I know this will make your situation more difficult, but please forgive me for not gng even giving it a try. I dun think i can handle my time wisely now. I shld be studying for my exam, but all im thinking abt now is the club and the programme. Im really tired. I wished tbat i can turn back the clock and all these would not have happened,

Exam is round the corner and I'm not really really prepared i guess. I really hope i'll be able to do well in the exam and get a GPA of 3.8:D hahaha. Well, i dunno if it's a good thing for me to get to the SPSEC sub-comm, it's true that i get to noe a lot of ppl from all the different courses. However, it means more commitments too, more meetings and less time for myself. On the other hand, I want my Poly journey ro be a fulfilling one too.. I'm in such dilemma. tsk tsk. SPOT's interview on wed, i dunno why, but i dun really want to get in. But i want to lessen daddy's financial burden-.- That's I say im in dilemma, maybe i shld rename myself, I shld not be Cherlyn Ng, I shld be named Dilemma Ng!LOL. Argh!! rawr!! I shld really work during the holidays, but i have SPSEC during Hols too.. I dunno how, but I set my mind on it alrdy, im gonna take up shift work, like this, i can at least have a little time for myself and my novels:D Gotta go back to sch for meeting tmr from 2 to 4 and then back into revising. I'm gonna get a little something for myself as a birthday gift :} I noe this year's birthday will be a little different, so yeah, it's not gonna be like the past, but oh well, I'll be contented if everyone i love can celebrate with me, even though it seems a little difficult now. Hahaha, I dunno, who knows it's not as bad as i perceived things to be?!

I have this nostalgia feeling in me since ytd. hahaha. Yes, it's YOG break! But it aint no break, it's time to mug for exams:( I used to love friday, but i definitely not ytd. hahah. school ended freaking late and i had to go back to sec sch. So yeah, if i make a trip back home then i'll be late. So i took a train down to tanah merah and walked all the way to sch. I WALKED. I dun remember to journey from the mrt station to school to be that far. Haha. Met up with all the awesome OCIP peeps ytd, we did a lot of catching up and grumbling.. It's been such a long time since we last met. Well, watched some OCIP clips ytd, felt a little like crying, i dunno why, maybe those were like the best moments in my life. I guess the memories i had in OCIP is so overwhelming, i just hope i could turn the clock and go back those days. I will never wanna forget those times i had in sec school, even if i have to forget some things in my life. Few weeks to me turning legal, i feel so old, im gonna be 18 soon, it seems like i just turned 16 ytd. Im not really looking forward to my birthday, LOL!! It just so happened that my last dance lessin falls on my birthday. hahaha. Cool, one last dance yeah? I guess i wanna continue with dancing, it's the only joy, the only way i can distress a little. Dance lesson is that short 1 hour, but i enjoyed it and hope it will be a little longer. Dancing allows me to forget everything on my mind, all those unpleasent stuffs. hahaha. Oh, ignore me, I'm really weird recently. Been really forgetful these day, see, im getting older. hahaha.

Naz:)

Pei Min:)

Shermin:)

Just the 4 of us<3

I just love being with the girls! they are this awesomest bunch of ppl, you will nv get enough of fun and craze-filled moments! hahaha. We tried Naz geeky specs just now and camwhore a little, decide to all use it as our fb display pic! hahaha. Damn funny just now, we were gng for EMC just now, our class's at 4 lvl and the lift in under "MAJOR MAINTAINENCE", so we had no other choice but to climb up the stairs, we tried pressing for the lift at the second floor and realised it's actually working, so we decide to take the risk, we entered the lift. But when the lift door opened, we'll still on the second floor. hahaha, we totally freaked out and ran out as fast as possible. hahhaa. EMC presentation was quite okay i guess, im just glad it's finally over:) Tmr's AVS lesson is at 2-4, then we'll have AVS presentation, guess i'll just have to rush down to tms from dover then... SPEC interview tmr, kinda nrevous.. hahaha, havent gone for interview for very long, i hope everything will turn out good tmr!:)

Mon: Materials presentation
Tue: EMC dry run
Wed: POM and Law presentations
Thurs: EMC presentaion
Fri: AVS presentation+ SPEC sub-comm interview
Look at the number of presentations i have this week. It sure drives me nuts!! AVS lecturer is absent cos he had asthma and food poisoning, Poor thing. With this, it also means that we missed a lesson.. and it's our last chapter/lesson before the exam!!! So, another lecturer, Mr Chin had to take over the class and replace the lecture we were suppose to have on Mon to Fri. That means i will only end school at 3!! I have a freaking SPEC xub-comm interview on friday at 1.40pm, gotta skip part of the lecture just for the interview, if we ask for a relocation of time, we'll be arranged at the last slot-.-

OCIP get together on Fri, kinda looking forward to it:) Haven't met those bunch of cool peeps ever since we graduated, or rather, we havent be hanging out tgt ever since we came back from our trip. Really really miss those times we had in Cambodia!!

Exam is round the corner and I'm not even half ready for it, I'm gonna mug my way thru the YOG break. This so reminds me of O lvls. Come to think of it, it's been 8 months since the release of results and a few months away to mark our first year of grduation from sec sch:) that's really fast, then I'll be in semester 2 alrdy, next april i'll be in year 2 and no more a freshie.. sad!! hahaha. The Babes and I are planning to crash the freshies' welcome party next year. hahaha. Time really flies, we grow up too fast, i dun even have time to stop and take a look at the surrounding, or even enjoy my years in school. hahaha. Oh well, I'm really not looking forward to gng out to the society to work, working part time is alrdy killing me, I prefer sch to work. Of course, sch can be quite sucky, but not as compared to working. I'm definitely not gonna take up an office job, Cherlyn is no OL!! I want to go arounf, relate to ppl and not staying in that office ith partitions arnd, face the comp and work like a machine.. No way! Hope tt events industry will be the right job for me:) But i still wanna be a sch counsellor:) But maybe I'll start with being a pre-school teacher first after a few years in the events industry. I'm gonna get a degree in psychology and business:) I'm greedy, I noe:) I dun even noe if i can handle the stress for one degree and here I am, thinkig=ng of getting another degree. Wait, I dun even have a diploma yet.. hahaha. I must work really hard for my GPA then. GO CHERLYN!! GPA 3.8!!