Hello?? Anybody there?? I hope i can take control of the time, cos time is simply going by so slowly, i tot i'll onli turn 18 in the next 100 years... Great grandma's not in good condition, the doc says she'll be either gone this week or next. Well, maybe letting go will make things easier for everybody. Yeah, letting go. it always seem so easy to tell others to let go and say the onli solution for the problem is to let go. But it's not all so easy as it seems isnt it? there are many a times when i told myself that im ready to let go and face the journey ahead of me, i realise it din work that way like i planned. I knew i was ready, but when reality hits, i could do nothing, but just let the rivults of tears stream down my cheeks, sometimes i have to hide my tears cos i dun wan anybody to see the weaker side of me. Esp when there are ppl arnd me whom i wanna protect by all means, i dun wan them to see me break down, or mayb e, i just want them to keep onli the pleasant sight of me. Sometimes i can no longer recognise myself cos im so lost in the situation. School, i guess, is the best hide out place. A place where i can get myself busy with sch work, a place where i can forget everything but onli spend time with my friends. So many things have happened recently, some ppl might have known waht happened, but no matter how much they try to assure me that i'll be alight, i know i wont be. It's true that i want to know how's the situation, but when i know, i just hope that it's a dream, you may say that im living in constant dilemma. Everyone told me that they hope that i wont be affected, but how's that possible even thouigh i assured them that i'll stay strong. everyone knows it's not possible, i tried to be strong by smiling and getting myself immense un something, but there's nothing i can do to get the issue out of me. You can say that im forcing a strong front. I know im old enough to handle all these issues, but im just not strong enough, at least not enough to let go. No matter what happens, i'll try to hold on, though, for those ive tried so hard to help. Im created to face new endeavours, so i can pass on what ive learnt to mr future generations.