It's Sunday, and i am having my Pre-Monday blues. Am really having a serious craving for ice-cream or ice-blend. I've learn a lot this year, realised I've grown up, my friends too, we think differently. Maybe because I've been thru quite a lot, i tend to think differently, well, it's a fortune in disguise then. Well, talked to my junior ytd, I haven been talking to him for a while cos im always tired after school, especially on those days when you have so much to do, and all you ever want to do is to procrastinate. Wydre, my bestie since sec sch and i talked to him abt his sch. I chided him a little i guess, and i wont blame him for being pissed. I'm am truly worried for him. The tot of me doing my tertiary education now makes me feel im no longer the same, im alrdy grown up. That means, there will be some point in my life, i wont be able to help him anymore, cos we'll all have to move on with our lives and do what we aspire to do. Seeing him not reaching his goals worries me. I've beem thru everything that he is gng thru and i dun want him to regret his decisions, i really want him to live his life to the fullest, but it aint gng this way. I guess his really tired of failing. he must be thinking :"so what if i work so hard, i still fail. It just hurt me even more when i fail. I dun think anything will change by working hard and let nature take its course." NO.. this isnt how things shld be like. Ive been thru all that too, I failed, teaachers told me not to aim for the impossible, ppl see look at me differently cos im in NA, sometimes i dun get support from ppl whom i love most. There are many a times i feel like giving up. I remembered how i cried over my results but no one knows, I've got into some sort of depression during my preparation period too, i cried while studying and i totally lost it. I know what i want, but sometimes things just dun go my way, especially when i've put in so much effort and yet nth has changed, it just makes me feel even worse. I didnt want to give up cos i dun wanna regret my decisions. I tried really hard, cos i rmembered what Shalyn told me, she told me to start believeing in myself cos she has nv stop believing in me. I may not be really happy now, but at least, i fulfilled the dream i had back then. I still have a lot of things to work towards now and in future, and this makes life quite sucky, but i will continue to work extremely hard. Ijust want him and maybe, my sis and some to understand that whateveer you are gng thru now may be the biggest thing in life and you may think that it is impossible for you to handle it, but it isnt. This is just some eniee miniee part of your life, its like a preparation camp for you to face what's awaiting for you out there. You have to be strong and move on, make the right decsions and really, start believeing in yourself.

Alright, it was a super long day today, weather's really good, its the best time to sleep. But i spend 90% of i in school-.- Peimin and i took 2 mins to walk to our sch.. we broke record.. hahaha, we literally flew there and its damn far!! hahaha, we have turbo-legs!!! Did AVS practical, damn cool!! Shermin and i were saying to click 5's jenny. hahahaha. So yeah, stayed back in school till 5 with Shermin and we talked abt everything under the sun, nice talking to her:) Then we went to the SPOT briefing tgt, after hearing it, i felt like there's very litter chnace of me getting into it, i dunno if i can commit and handle it.. But i guess im gonna try for the interview. Even if i cant get thru, i still have Love and relationship and i think its gonna be quite interesting. If i get in, i'll try my best to handle and manage my time well, but i dunno if i can really do that. A lot of things are running thru my mind. Those who gets into SPOT will be like 17 and i think there will be very little ppl who are 18, futhermore, most of them will be from communication school and business school, bet there will be very little Architecture and built environment students there. This will voice down to me being quite left out and out of place. Oh well, no point worrying so much abt it now, we'll see how things goes:) All i wanna do now is to do well in my Semester exam and get a gpa of 3.8, hopefully, get a good vacation job anad end some money.. of course, spend more quality time with my fmaily, sec sch friends and my current poly darlings:)

I'm gonna blog a little before i switched off my laptop:) School haas been really hectic, as usual, i'm not complaining, I'm just hoping for the best, i really wanna do well for my semester exam and test, so i"ll have to start cramming soon, and i reakky mean SOON! hahaha. Had quite a few presentations last week, i think that was why last week passed so quickly. Well, this week is gonna be be quite busy too, I've gotta start preparing for all the presentations next week, there are 3 presentations next week, if i include the material's one, it will make four.. awesome!! Presentations are making me a little crazy, cna you see my hair all standing. Sooner or later, i'll be able to join the pandas in the zoo too. LOL. Anyway, SPOT emailed me, they invited me to a briefing this fri and then followed by an interview, this will determin if we will be able toget into SPOT programme. Well, SPOT is some sort of scholarship programme, I want to get into SPOT, mainly because this will really lighten my family's financial burden.The sch fee in Poly isn't cheap, so yeah. But only 150 will be selected, I'll just pray really hard:) Anyway, they had their 1st interview alrdy, but i wasnt shortlisted, i was kinda dissappointed,and now, they are inviting me again, so if i dun get shortlisted this time, i'm really gonna give up on SPOT. hahahaha, needa move on with life ain't it? LOL. I'm trying my best to clear all my tutorials and projeects. Pheww..

IT'S SUNDAY!! the week just zoom pass like this, damn fast, but i like it, it means YOG break is coming:) but it also equates to semester exam nearing:( F1 stage is also done, just some cutting and pasting to do. YAY! there are a few more presentation to do and im donw with it:) Gonna start stuying soon, this term seems more difficult, unlike last term where i could at least understand some things, but this seem quite.. i dunno how to phrase it, it's just really stressful, i hope nst semester will be better for me:) *fingers-cross. I wanna do will for the exam!!! hahaha, like who doesn't. LOL

Happy Birthday Daddy!!
Had my first salsa lesson today! hahah, it was really fun need to thank Aunt Jenn, Muachx!! well, Most came with their partner, but we rotate partners, so we get to dance with everybody. I accidentally hit one of the guy, really really sorry.. lost count of beats and kinda like, you noe, dance like some sort of octopus. hahahaha. So sorry if i trip on you guys..xD Whoops. hahaha. Salsa is kinda different from Cha Cha, but the count is still the same. Right, gotta carry on with all the poly projects.. there is to much to do, but i just dunno where to start with.

I'm so looking forward for the next lesson

Naz [one of my babes] and I during networking event

The the "almost-done" stage i did with my darlings

Its been so long since i last posted pictures. hahaha. Had Mad Jack for lunch ytd with my babes, then we went to 313 to shop, but too bad, i had no money, spend too much alrdy. hahaha. Had networking party just now for EMC, had to dress formal, i officially delcare that i cannot wear formal clothing, those killer heels are definitely killing me, feel damn weird, hahaha. i bet ppl were thinking why are we dressed like this. haha. finally finished my brochure, but the alignment is really out, that means my brochure is kinda screwed. i really hope it wont affect my marks. LOL. joined SP journey for YOG with the babes, damn excited. haha. had so much fun with them, i have so much plans with them too. Love them to the max!! hahah. yay!!

oh rightm everyone is on the WC craze mode. I tot i will be able to catch the finals, but oh well, doubt i'll be able to keep my eyes open till then, unless i stick the toothpick in to leave my heavy eyelids. hahaha. Sch hasnt been really good so far. Law is seriously taking my life, it's killing all he healthy cells in my body. Im gonna go down to PoMo with my darlings (Peimin, Shermin and Naz) to get our brochure printed for the communication class. Having a networking event on wed, im really not looking forward to it, it's just weird, there are 6 classes for DEPM but we dunno anyone from other classes, other than commando (Jet) and some other ppl. O1 is suppose to be our buddying class, but we are just super duper seperated, we dun even talk to each other. this is so unlike sec sch where we say hi to ppl from all over the places, just because we are all in the same school. maybe SP is too big. haha. Was suppose to spend a day out with my sec sch classmates ytd, but there were changes, they said they wanna postpone the thing to nxt sat. I'll wont be able to make it then since my salsa class starts nxt week. hahaha.

Bear with it, get use to it, understand the changes.

It's MONDAY!!! DAMN, im so glad its over, i treated myself to this super big piece of chocolate, think im growing fat. I think we were quite mean during lunch break just now, but oh well.. Ive got endless assignments. Celebrating daddy's birthday tmr, Jolene Ng says that sushi tei is so boring as asked me to do research on where to eat-.- she said its my job to plan. Oh pls!! Being in event mgmt doesnt mean i have to go thru all these agony, ive got enough of it in school. Well, searched for some restaurants, see if she's okay with it, if not, she'll do the researching cos i still have tons of incomplete work and a very tight schedule to follow. I realised everytime after i say bye bye to my mum on the phone or when we drop her off at her place, i will have theis weird feeling, and i will tend to hold back my tears unknowingly. LOL. oh well.. get use to it cherlyn, you're a big girl now, gng 18 in a few months time. hahaha. I miss sec sch a lot , i mean, really a lot. we used to be so pampered in sec sch, and now, when we are in poly, we are all left to our own device, needa practise a lot of discipline, cos we tend to slacken really easily. Hope i can really get through 3 years of poly, well, not exactly 3 years cos the last semester i'll be on attachment. 4 weeks and 4 days to YOG break!! Woohoo, it's okay if we dun have youth day, We've got 3 weeks of YOG break! Beat that!! hahahaha.Maybe i shld return to sec sch one day, really miss everybody there especially the teachers=) hahaha

AVS:67
POM:93
Materials:90
Law:76
It's all finalised=) I feel so much better now after knowing all my reuslts, Projects are piling up, endliess Assignments for me to finish, i feel so suffocated. LOL. Guess this is POly.Went shopping with Naz and Shermin ytd.. finally shopped!! haha. Most probabay having an outing with my sec schmates next Sat=)Miss them a lot a lot!! Daddy ask me how will i feel if mummy moves back, i was quiute unprepared for this qn. Well, Im fine with anything, just as loong as they are happy and that history doesnt repeat itself again. I know daddy wanna patch up with mummy but they are lot of things hindering it. Well, if mummy is happy with her life now, i'll support her cos afterall nth changes the fact that she's my mum, i love both my parents, if they think that the decisions they made are right, I'll go along with it, though it is quite difficult to face it. Like what i said previusly, being able to accept the situation doesnt mean we can face it. Oh well, i got a hang of it alrdy, found my bearings and im really glad that ive got all my family members and friends accompanying me through this ordeal. But whatever the decision may be, I respect it. Oh well.. Let's all just hope for the best=) I WANNA SHOP AGAIN!! CANT GET ENOUGH OF SHOPPING! But im getting broke:( hahahaha.