I guess no one is reading my blog cos im gonna reveal somethings here. I'm rather stressed up by school recently, exam is round the corner, and im really scared i wont do well. I just got elected as the exchange club sub-comm member, and this is really stressing me up quite a lot. I've gone back to school for some meetings to discuss about some camps we will be organising at the end of the year. I'm under the liaison, there was actually only me, but thank god zom offered to help me, if not i'm in dead meat. Im suppose to contact the primers and the adventure club as we need to borrow some camp eqiupments from them and we need primer to coach us on how to set up campfire. At least adventure got back to me, but there's still not news from primer. I need to finalise some things with them before the recce which is right after the exam.

I went for SPOT interview ytd and i think i did quite okay, but im quite reluctant to to join the programme, it seriously needs a lot of commitment which i am definitely not ready for. I want to do all those fun elective modules with my friends too, and not some current affair modules. Im in a huge dilemma, cos if i get into spots, i wont need to pay for my school fees and i will gain a lot of benefits from it. 75% of me doesnt want to get in and 25% wants to get in. see the massive difference.

Im am really sorry, i noe i will make things easier for you by getting in, all of you pin so much hopes on me, knowing that i have the chance, you guys are all so hyped up and happy for me, but im not really so keen in getting in. Im really stressed up by the situation im in right now. I hate this, but forgive me for being a little selfish this time, i gave up this rare opportunity, i really cannnot handle the stress level. I know this will make your situation more difficult, but please forgive me for not gng even giving it a try. I dun think i can handle my time wisely now. I shld be studying for my exam, but all im thinking abt now is the club and the programme. Im really tired. I wished tbat i can turn back the clock and all these would not have happened,